i felt the pain as well as hatred..i have been thinking alot..every seconds..keep on thinking and thinking..cant even concentrate on my exam..

am i really happy ?

can i really smile as before ? or laugh cheerfully ?

i am not the same me anymore..
this time i can feel it..
it is completely different..
issit so difficult to just stay for 1 ?
hmmm maybe i shld learn to be more fierce..like my brother James..
but i know i cant do that..coz that's not me..

i shall just live on..nothing but just memories..

this time really hurts..too deep..