seriously..i am trying my very hard to forget...but i just cant do it...

every night,when i lied down on bed..images just appear...automatically..it just pop up in my mind..trying very hard not to think..but the more i try, the harder it is to forget..

sometimes i wonder if i am trying to use my game to keep me busy so as i wont think of anything negative..but sad to say i still do..whenever i am alone at home or in my room, i will just start to think of u...

issit so difficult to forget ? been askin myself...went out with friends..sharing laughter and joy but that is only temporary type of fun..when i reached home all alone it just came across my mind..

i dont tell my mum much about what happen..cause i always hope there can be some miracle or something..whenever i pick up my phone, wanted to dial your number but my hand just freezes cause i will think of all the negative stuffs..

The letter is not torn..i still keep it well and free from dust..read everyday before i go to sleep..sometimes tears wil just roll..my birthday wish ? when will it ever come true..

i really hope that it will come true...i dont wan tell but i think you know..wishes that are not said to others will normally come true..once it is spreaded or announced, nothing will happen anymore..

my wallet..neoprints and passport photo are left untouched..they are still there...folded bus tickets hearts..i kept every of them..not even one less..the shirt that u gave me on valentine, i have not even wore it..cause i really want you be the first to see..but when will that day ever come..i will only take out the photos in my wallet when the day i stop loving u..but i dont think it will come now..or rather it will never come..