:: JAM ::

weeeeeeeee...hmmm today woke up..nth special..watching tv as usual..dont feel like playing any games..just dont have the mood to do so..and i meeting john,tim they all for JAM...muahaha...seriously speaking..this is my first time jamming...LOL..was abit shy over there..dont dare to sing out loud..but after awhile got used of the surrounding there..and i sing...lol..but always come in at the wrong time..my fault..sorry...lol..but anyway will train to make it better...coz i know how it sounds like now..had lots of fun over there..haha..really cheer me up alot..is really fun to be with them..is great to know my churchmates..haha..after jamming..when i speak,is like kinda off pitch..i mean i will like go high note when i talk to them normally..LOL..haha..nothing special..LOLOL...yupz and den john went home the other way..shiwei,eufei and liang took a bus...tim and me went to the opp busstop to wait for 174...anyway the studio is at bukit timah there..is really cool..haha..yupz and i chatted alot with my cousin..thought alot of things..and he made me realised what i am actually doin now..he even told me abt some of his friends stories..yupz quite similar..so i guess i shld really make a choice right now...

i should really let u go now..to end our misery..is not that i dont love u..is just that the way u handle relationship is different from the way i am handling..so i guess that we should really think of what we really want but not getting our thoughts no where...is not that i dont understand u..is juz that u need to stand in my shoes and also in your shoes to look at this matter..i know that is not easy to settle this kind of thing in a day or so..but i really given u alot of time..is like 3mths..is really painful to suffer this kind of thing for 3mths..is really really really very painful..not that i dont trust u to do it, but your little actions over these 3mths..really doubt me alot.. "is cruel for us to go meet him and cruel to ignore him without saying the word breakup.." so these are some of the actions that really doubt me and giving me lots of headaches..becoz i dont really know what u really want..u often said that i dont know what you going thru now..yes i dont know..but i offered to help..but u dont let me to..so if u dont accept my help, u will get no where..in the next 5yrs..will be the same too...if this can like go on for 4yrs already..i really appreciate all the memories that u have given it to me..is really so nice and loving..i felt the love..but i dont feel the secure..i will always keep all these happy moments in my heart..thx for being there for me when i always in troubles..i had thought alot when i came to this decision..we can stil be friends..chatting abt each other problems too..yupz that's about all..really pray that you will lead a good life..