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haiz today woke up on my own..i juz missed the wake up calls...den got myself prepared and go church...and den saw xinyi on the train..she was late too..lol..coz she was searching for her scores..but couldnt find it..so went church together..i was wearing this turtle shirt..haha..alot of people comment on my shirt..they think is cool and funny la..Lol..i also agree..heehee...kok hiang came over and said.. " I like ur shirt ! " LOL..and den john said is so cool..lOLOL..and after service...we went to ikea to have our lunch thr..oooo the chicken chop rice there is really nice..liang was complaining abt his pasta which is so awful and he went to go and buy chicken chop rice too..lolol..and den after that we went to queensway shopping centre to look around..coz tim wana buy FBT shorts...yupz den janice and i took train home and they took bus..came back slept awhile..feeling different...dont know why..den went to celebrate von's bday..juz back only..this yr more people celebrating with her..haha..had lots of fun there..it really cheer me up for that moment...and we sent the girls home and now finally back at my own house..

i felt loneliness..emptiness...hopeless..thinking whether i am making the right choice anot..i really feeling sad and moody now..haiz..what to do..haiz..how..i really love u..i really really love u..very much..and is alot..and crazily....but i just cant share...i dont like that feeling...i juz wan a pure relationship..which i can get to relax...but not headaches and heart pain...argh....before i made the choice..i really think the whole night..i am thinking the things happening within the 3 mths..so much things happening..happiness..sadness..all these juz flashed inside my head...haiz..but what i had done..the result is stil the same..i am really a failure..haiz...very miserable now..wait til u get rid of him den maybe we can be together ba..haiz...

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