hmmm yester worked 12hours at the bazaar..tiring though..but is worth it..quite boring too..coz i dont socialise over there..busy folding clothes as usual..going around the wagons..legs and backbone breaking soon.. :)

and 4 friends came to visit me...

jeremy
eric
joeis
yane

yupz..and they almost messed up my place..haha..hmm ya and the rest of the time is quite dull..directly after my work, i walked to the station A.F.A.P. coz von and sk wana watch movie at jp..

Date Movie - is really a boring show..with a mixture of the following movies:

Meet the fockers
Meet the parents
The Hitch

funny but the lines and scenes are the same..not a good show to recommend..
then went home after that..

Today almost cant wake up..too tired..ya..and john was able to booked out today..yeahx and 5 of us went for lunch at the market..den liang,sam and me went for pool..i keep going in the white ball.. =( duno why..haha

ya and came home to sleep..quite tired..and she went out..was waiting for her..

hmm sometimes i really think that at this very crucial moment, everything is very important..cause the building of trust has to be done all over again..is not an overnight thingy..i am stil the same old me..i didnt change at all..but..have u change ?

knowing your own limits is very important too..if you cant focus on that..the other one will hurt badly..i have high blood pressure over these few days..my face is always red now..not kidding..and really..actually dont have to hide anything from me now..your friend might not know how difficult it is for me to feel all these..all i can say is very terrible..there's really nothing i can do now..is all up to you..

sometimes i really envy john and fei..they are going through honeymoon periods now..is really so sweet and nice..but for me ?

why do i work ? to have enough money so as to buy something that i am able to afford to give u as bday present..i really work very hard..i go breaks for half an hr only..coz the other half i am able to earn more money..though i keep whining and complaining abt the work, but i stil go on..

yupz i dont have the time to accompany u..u have your own activities..i am trying hard not to restrict you..coz now..i dont have the rights to..

i never think of myself only..i think about the future too..had some lecture from shimin..she is so mature now..planning everything so well..

each time u mentioned something negative,my level of confidence kept on going down and down..you may think that "what's wrong ?"..have you ever thought of why am i not like this last time ?

working afternoon shift tml..gonna go sleep soon..byez..

i lost my working badge..clumsy me man..

sad... need to pay $10 for that...argh....

and today i was very fed up..

the wagon was being messed up 3 times by chi_nas

was really frustrating when they didnt buy anything..i thought they would at least buy something but in d end, they shook their butt and walked off..

grrrrr...how am i going to survive another week..LOL..

and ya..today alot of people came to find me..

vonvon
joan
her
sharon

haha..yeahx..

james actually jio-ed me to go sentosa tml but i cant make it..need to work..sigh..no work no money..so i rather work and play later..haha..ok time to bath and sleep..very tired..tml gonna work for 12hours..sianz...and is week end somemore..

dead..lol

wa so tired man..today working at the bazaar...oh man selling clothes...i keep folding and folding...when i finished,the other side is messy again..when i finished folding this section, the others messy again..LOL..never stopped folding from noon till night..9hrs of folding...lol now i know how housework is like..hate doing that..LOL..
ya tml working again..sianz..

there's nothing much that i can do now..can only accompany u when u need me..or console u..i tink that what i gonna do now..until u calm yourself down the very day..then things will come our way.. yeahx :D

cheers ^.^

my legs are breaking.........................lol...

weee...

today went out with her to go study at JE library..i was reading comics and she was revising her maths and chem stuffs..preparing for the incoming exams..

had lots of fun today..totally felt as if it was like the days we used to have during the exams weeks at the library..haha..and she is so piggy..keep eating and eating and eating...LOLOL..cant stop =x

ya after that i sent her home..

i feeling good today...no doubt about it..heehee..

seriously..i am trying my very hard to forget...but i just cant do it...

every night,when i lied down on bed..images just appear...automatically..it just pop up in my mind..trying very hard not to think..but the more i try, the harder it is to forget..

sometimes i wonder if i am trying to use my game to keep me busy so as i wont think of anything negative..but sad to say i still do..whenever i am alone at home or in my room, i will just start to think of u...

issit so difficult to forget ? been askin myself...went out with friends..sharing laughter and joy but that is only temporary type of fun..when i reached home all alone it just came across my mind..

i dont tell my mum much about what happen..cause i always hope there can be some miracle or something..whenever i pick up my phone, wanted to dial your number but my hand just freezes cause i will think of all the negative stuffs..

The letter is not torn..i still keep it well and free from dust..read everyday before i go to sleep..sometimes tears wil just roll..my birthday wish ? when will it ever come true..

i really hope that it will come true...i dont wan tell but i think you know..wishes that are not said to others will normally come true..once it is spreaded or announced, nothing will happen anymore..

my wallet..neoprints and passport photo are left untouched..they are still there...folded bus tickets hearts..i kept every of them..not even one less..the shirt that u gave me on valentine, i have not even wore it..cause i really want you be the first to see..but when will that day ever come..i will only take out the photos in my wallet when the day i stop loving u..but i dont think it will come now..or rather it will never come..

hey u guys know wat ?

i am 20 years old now........

muahahahahaha...

but i felt older with a 2 infront.....

-.-

I am totally disappointed in u............................................................................

i didnt expect u will go out with him................................................

really disappoint me this time.........

and totally.........................................

Today i thought everything was fine but until .....

sigh...

i have been dreaming and fantasizing..

Get back to reality boy...

it will never happen..

edwin:dang nan ren ying kai fang shou de shi hou, jiu ying kai fang shou, zhe yang cai shi ge nan ren.

well said..i like this..

*sorry cant get the chinese version one..coz it will come out in weird symbols..